What can I say, I'm just like any other teenager. But I like to make messes, it's become my hobby in this world. If I really wanted to I could be organized but how can you make a mess if it's still organized? So in my own way I am organized but it's an messy style of order.



I love people. Their ways are entertaining, their thoughts rage from here to clear over there. I have a very wide varity of people in my life, But everyone one them I would die for and always have their backs. Even though I prolly kick much ass, it's not really my style. I'd prefer to play killer card games and strangle people with candy necklaces. XD.



If you asked me to go outside, I'd prolly run away from you and hide under the sink. I don't mind being outside but when it comes to sunlight it's a battle. I hate the sunlight, it actauly seems to wear out my body just to be out in direct sunlight. Then I passout and go nighty night. Tons of fun! My favorite time to be outside is when the sun is just getting ready to set, and the temperature begins to drop. I could stay out forever during this time of day/night. I'm a night animal, as if I'm harmless till the sun sets. Muahhahaha. That mite actually be kinda true, errrrrmmm.



Almost every night I sneak out just to lay under the stars, it seems to take my breath away. Hours go by faster than my heartbeat when I'm watching the stars. Since I live kinda in a rural town there aren't many lights on at night which makes the stars clearer and brighter. All this summer I have been wacthing the stars fade into the night as the sun begins to peek thro the herizon. Signalign that my time is up and I much return from where I have excasped.



For all my life I have stood out when no one dared, it's what I've always done and what I'll always do. Yes, I do get tease alot by tons of people that do or don't know me. It saddens me to think that people are so judgemental or just plain quick to judge someone they mite never know. It takes time to find out what they are truly about, time that most people don't have, so they don't bother. I can truly say it's not just outside people that have this life style. But it's also my own family, i can;t count how many times I've been told by my own mom and dad that I look like a whore or a total slut for just having my hair a different color, a color that should only be used in art work. On my mom's side of the family I am a rebal and I will never be the little kid they knew and loved. I know you prolly think they love me, but I know countless times where they have told me to leave a family event becuase of the way I was dressed. On my dad's side of the family I am a waste of person. Since I was the only girl on that side of the family for almost a decade, I was liltary a shock to them. And to this day I'm an not aloud at family events cuase my own family to suffer. I do feel bad for the pain I have cause my family, but I don't see the need for a change in who I am.



Growing up I learned from the very get go to trust people to a point. Such as I trusted my parents to feed me but I knew better to trust that they'll stick up for me. I am a very optimistic person. Tending to give everyone a chance and my trust.



I've tended been outgoing most my life as a show of a life. But it's always been a fight to be outgoing, since I've always been that little shy baby girl everyone adored. It's hard to be shy though day in and day out, you never get to meet new people and see new things that hide under the streets. I could never last being shy it's not my way of life, unless trying to hide my water gun. XD. lolz. If you live your life without taking risks what do you do all day? Count threads on your pillow? Hun, news to you, on the package it'll tell you how many threads you rest your head on. =]



I can be recklessly strange. But it's okay, I've made reservations for the phsyic hospital. They know I'm coming and they are locked and loaded with shiny objects to lure me in.